July 17th, 2005
Depressed beyond words....
Beyond heartbroken, beyond words....left totally speechless
Dawn of the end unveils, shattering years of a wonderful friendship which supposedly should last as long as the soul remains in our body,
all killed by my remarks, remarks which sounds soo non-lethal, but taken in a total whole new aspect by the recipient, a whole new interpretation....resulting in me being judge in a whole different manner....
yet, whose to be blamed...me, yeah me...fer letting such remarks escape my oral cavity...though i neva meant a single word spoken....
My best fren shud know i'm fooling, joking....me being serius is a rare occasion.....I would hv expected someone close to me(like YOU) to know me better, but unfortunately....that wasn't the case.
I'm secretive, yeah..that's my nature...that's me....me not telling u anything doesn't potray any lack of trust i;ve wif u...
A dictionary quote would tell you that trust is vital in a friend...
Without having someone to rely on da friendship is doomed to end.....
so, naturally as mere human, unjustifiable as it sounds......I trust u loads,but it's my nature to be secretive to whoever it may be....
Yeah, i'm the bad hat in our Buddyship....I'm sorry, deeply madly trully sorry from the bottom of my heart...
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Albeit my apologies....all YOU could say is "thx...it was really great to have ya as a pal..".......
that's wow....nowhere even close bad news, ......that's a sad, depressed feeling,a hurt feeling....soo downing, deeper than the deepest oceans,
Should i say " YOU ARE WELCOME" ??
I couldn't ....i can't say anything.... i'm left in the dark, suffering the pain of how i screwed-up a beautiful buddyship.....
I would do anything to make up to YOU....yet, yet...something tells me i've lost u fer good, any method i attempt seems soo futile,pointless......gaining YOUR trust seems next to impossible...but i haven't concluded it's impossible....I'll neva give up...
Give me a chance again....will ya?....Strands of hope still remain within, the fire has yet to be completely extinguished......
Sadly, this is the present. Almost all colors within has gone....but i hope the seed of buddyship will grow again...n this time around, God-willing it'll last a lifetime.
Again, lemme say SORRY, my deepest regrets .......I acknowledge my mistakes....forgive me, will ya??
Dawn of the end unveils, shattering years of a wonderful friendship which supposedly should last as long as the soul remains in our body,
all killed by my remarks, remarks which sounds soo non-lethal, but taken in a total whole new aspect by the recipient, a whole new interpretation....resulting in me being judge in a whole different manner....
yet, whose to be blamed...me, yeah me...fer letting such remarks escape my oral cavity...though i neva meant a single word spoken....
My best fren shud know i'm fooling, joking....me being serius is a rare occasion.....I would hv expected someone close to me(like YOU) to know me better, but unfortunately....that wasn't the case.
I'm secretive, yeah..that's my nature...that's me....me not telling u anything doesn't potray any lack of trust i;ve wif u...
A dictionary quote would tell you that trust is vital in a friend...
Without having someone to rely on da friendship is doomed to end.....
so, naturally as mere human, unjustifiable as it sounds......I trust u loads,but it's my nature to be secretive to whoever it may be....
Yeah, i'm the bad hat in our Buddyship....I'm sorry, deeply madly trully sorry from the bottom of my heart...
.
.
Albeit my apologies....all YOU could say is "thx...it was really great to have ya as a pal..".......
that's wow....nowhere even close bad news, ......that's a sad, depressed feeling,a hurt feeling....soo downing, deeper than the deepest oceans,
Should i say " YOU ARE WELCOME" ??
I couldn't ....i can't say anything.... i'm left in the dark, suffering the pain of how i screwed-up a beautiful buddyship.....
I would do anything to make up to YOU....yet, yet...something tells me i've lost u fer good, any method i attempt seems soo futile,pointless......gaining YOUR trust seems next to impossible...but i haven't concluded it's impossible....I'll neva give up...
Give me a chance again....will ya?....Strands of hope still remain within, the fire has yet to be completely extinguished......
Sadly, this is the present. Almost all colors within has gone....but i hope the seed of buddyship will grow again...n this time around, God-willing it'll last a lifetime.
Again, lemme say SORRY, my deepest regrets .......I acknowledge my mistakes....forgive me, will ya??
Posted by alruben at 07:44 PM | 1 You said..
an idiot.. (guest)
Best buddies 4eva k??!! =)